I'm having trouble pinpointing my joy today. It wasn't a bad day by any means, but there's not a moment that I felt that joy feeling fill my heart. We're all a little overwhelmed these days; me, Lara, the big kids, the baby, matt... I can tell we're all feeling a little stressed as we transition and find our new rhythm. I understand that a lot of this results my stress/tension levels. All these wonderful beings feed off my energy and if I'm not careful this can be a bad thing.
Chaos is the current state of our house every afternoon. For example...Paul is so excited when I get home from work and doesn't have a good outlet for his energy so it turns negative and usually towards his sister. I need a minute when I get home to put my stuff down, change clothes, breathe. Lara needs to download her day to me and talk about things she might need help on. Will needs a hug and usually wants to eat. Olivia is busy playing and then immediately wants a snack. Matt is calling because he's going to be home late. And somehow, I'm supposed to make a delicious and healthy meal for us all to enjoy.
So today I spent some dedicated time talking through some of the reasons we're currently in a state of chaos in our house.
Lara and I talked about a plan to help the kids stay calm and adapt when I get home.
Paul and I talked about having special time when I get home every day.
Matt let me download at the end of the night and try to make sense of it all.
So it wasn't a distinct moment of joy, but it is a joy to have people in my life to talk to and work with. And I know that together we will figure out how to make this work and make the chaos into fun and love.
KEEP CALM... CARRY ON.
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