Day 150 - Day What?!?!

OK- I'm back... My little project faltered... I won't say I failed. I didn't... I was successfully finding joy in all sorts of little wonderful things in life. So much so, that I was forgetting to write about them. I would find myself 2 weeks 'overdue' and spend an hour reminiscing about the good parts of each day. This did NOT bring me joy. It was nice to recap and remember, but it felt more like a chore. It added to my stress rather than highlighting my joy. Flash forward 6 months or so (maybe 9? - 12?)... it's summer and life is hectic. There's been a lot of change in the past few months and one hurt husband. This has made me feeling pretty yucky. It has opened up a wide abyss of the-woe-is-me variety in which I feel completely overwhelmed and unhappy. In my nature, when I feel this way, I start picking apart my life in attempts to 'fix' my problem. Something is broken. I can fix it. This leads to overanalyzing, being hypercritical, and feeling sure that everything is pretty bad. But it's not. Everything's actually pretty amazing right now. I just need to get my head in the game. I need to refocus on all the good things and quit wallowing in the not-so-good. Suddenly I remembered a time when I did this before and it helped immensely. It was right here. A place that VERY FEW people even know about, but it just feels good to put it out there in the world. It feels good to remember to focus on what is right in life. So my joy today is Hope. I am excited to refocus on the good and hope that it reminds me to remember all the great things in life. Hope that the new focus helps me be a nicer wife and a more patient mommy. Hope that I will quit wallowing. The hope and potential of being able to be happy just as things are, brings me great joy.

Day 149 - Hugs

When I got home yesterday, after being gone for 4 days, Paul was excited to see me, but couldn't stop playing to run to the door and meet me. Olivia didn't even look up, when she finally did she told me she needed a snack. Will was excited to see me, but mostly mad that I'd been gone. They warmed up as the night went on, but today when I got home tonight, I got running hugs and smiling faces!! This is a great feeling to come home to.

Day 148 - Metro Girl

Today I took a plane from Sacramento, a train into Seattle, a ferry to Bainbridge, a bus to Indianola, and walked down the hill to my home. The feeling of independence this gave me is so liberating!

Day 147 - Sam's Hofbrau

We went to dinner tonight at my Dad and Uncle Ken's old hang out. Meat. Lots and lots of meat. In the end my tummy didn't feel too happy, but my heart felt happy hearing Ken and Mark remember the good old days.

Day 146 - Weddings

Ani and Adam got married today. This wedding (the reception really) was so fun dancing and singing and talking to relatives we don't see often enough.

Day 145 - Freedom

I brought my suitcase to work for my big solo adventure to Sacramento. Really it was my hiking backpack stuffed full of high heals and dresses. After work I booked it over to the Bremerton ferry and enjoyed the beginning of my weekend of freedom. Very little responsibility, lots of free time. So exciting.

Day 144 - Nat's Birthday

I brought my friend a birthday coffee and pumpkin bread. She was so excited I might just do it again just for fun!!